I think about writing here more often than I actually do. I’m not sure what to say. So, whatever. Here’s a list of things:
- My daughter had so much fun at daycare that she didn’t want to leave. She had an extensive temper tantrum that included me hurting my back. I hurt it again last night and again this morning. I have been taking ibuprofen and using ice. I feel old. *sigh*
- I have been doing well with the few things I’m working on for my eating disorder treatment. I have had a few slip-ups, but I guess that’s to be expected.
- I miss my friend who died earlier this year. I still think about her every day. I miss my grandpa too. His birthday would have been last week and he would have turned 93.
- I would like to get two more tattoos – one that has something to do with my daughter and the other as a memorial tattoo of some kind.
- My husband drank four days out of seven this past week. 😦 This increases his sleeping. He says he’ll go to see the daycare when we pick up our daughter today. We’ll see.
- I have been feeling overwhelmed a lot lately. Sometimes I think that people expect too much or ask too much of me. When I try to set limits, they are not always respected. I am not sure how to deal with this. Perhaps I will discuss it with my counselor on Friday. I haven’t been able to see him for a month!
- I will see the nutritionist and eating disorder counselor tomorrow. It will be my first visit to the nutritionist. I’m not really looking forward to it, but understand why it’s necessary.
- I would like to get rid of a lot of stuff that I own because I just have too much. It’s hard to make the time or have the energy to do so. However, doing so would make moving easier.
- I have been off my cancer medicine for awhile now (maybe a couple of months), but I still sweat like a pig if I even move a little bit. It’s ridiculous and embarrassing. I thought it might get better after awhile, but I guess my hormones are still adjusting. The reminders of cancer seem to be often. Even if it’s a passing thought, I probably think about it most every day and it has been 7 years since I was diagnosed. I guess it doesn’t help that my friend and grandpa just died from cancer either. I guess maybe it will just be another “unresolved” thing in my life. I’m not sure if I will ever feel completely at peace with all of it.
- I’m tired. A lot.